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Happy 1st year anniversary BabyB. 

  Me Abegail , will marry ChanSweeHuat !
Today is a actually a special day . Supposed t be w you and friend t go for drinking after tht we will go t th place where I usually watch tv w you . Rmb ? There's only 2 place where we watch tv alone . Haha !
But yet , sigh . It's okay . Iloveyou but doesn't mean I have t get back th love from you . I wonder if you're showing up later on . I wish t see you even for awhile . I used th giving you stuffs but actually , I just wanna see you badly . I saw you just now , it's like wow ! I'am so happy ~ . But yet , seems like you're avoiding me . It's okay , I didnt give up . I still hoping you will go down but failed t do so . Haha ! You know , alot ppl asking me where you ? Why I not w you . It's a heartache you know ? Even my mom did ask , how are you and me ? and yeah , I wonder if you still rmb ahbi and ahboy . ahbi is fatter than ahboy . you know ? sunday I gonna shopping for their stuffs , alone . I'am speechless alr , I just wish you be a happy boy & find a new girl alright ? But hope , I really hope , you won't forget Jessica Chan Jiaqi , ahboy & ahbi . Forget me , but not them . Iloveyou , I always does (: .

Off t town , shopping for awhile while waiting for someth . Down back t jurong t pass things t him (: . Gosh I so happy la , knnb ! Wait for xh fetch me and off we go . Went alot of places eh .(Y) so nice la can ! Lucky you drive if not I DIE , really I can die . Well yeah , thanks for bringing me there , it's really a very nice place t think . haha , SMILE (: ! and laughs w all your freaking craps -.- . Last place before we went back  , th special place . <: It's th 3rd time we went there . and yeah , ppl fcuk hard there . Haha ! I enjoy alot (: .

I get promoted advance promoted ! :D
Boring ~ Faster saturday :D ! teheeeeeees . Hope you'll come , I just wish t see you one last time and its time for me t move on (: . Don't forget Jessica Chan Jiaqi , okay !?
And hope uh , you'll visit ahboy and ahbi . If I go alr , you can go my house see them by contacting my mom .

To K :
Sorry uh , I know you will wait but I'am not ready for new relationship . Hope you understand (: .
As you said so , I changed alot (: . Yeah , it's true . I really changed alot . Not th one who will think twice t do anyth . Haha ! as you said , bad t worse . You want me t change , sorry it's hard . Specially when I in this kind of situation .

To Sn :
Alamak , don't worry la . He never hurt me physically , so it's okay :D ! Nothing t worry about .
Faster find serious relationship la , don't keep changechangechange ! STUPID ! I next time see you le I sure smack your head like I used before . Then you can fcuking wake up . And please , guai abit la , fcuker .

To Xg :
Thanks for th company , let's drink again next time:D ! hahahahahahahahha asshole . But Idw walk home la , tired die leeeeeeeeeee !

To BabyB. :
I hope you're doing well . And I guess now , you wont bother me anymore . So might as well ssay out everyth here , since you wont check my blog like you used before . It's been th 4th day since you let me go . And th 2nd day tht i thought I'am okay . Then why sudden now , I feel like this ? Like , I cannot live when you're not around . When I know you aren't mine . My heart start t ache alr . And those song , TongHua , thts when Iloveyou , beauatiful , down , etc ...  tht you used t sing t me everytime (': . Is being listen by me everytime . Haha , there's alot for me t say . But I guess , I shall stop here . Iloveyou , still (: !

 -Imissyou ,boy (': Haha !
I'am happy , I should be happy (: ! haha .
I used t reply msg w Haha in every end of th sentence , I used t laugh things out even If I'am about t cry .
You should be like me ! haha ~ Thanks t TanXunHong ! This little pig who never failed t be there when I need somebody t drink with . Even t talk with . Haha !
Idk why , but he helps me alot (: For some reason .
Yeah , I admit . I  do _______________________________ .
I'am happy t your text . I'am happy tht I'am able t smile for th ever first time after we're off .
I'am proud of myself ! Hope t see you sat , one last one will do (: . And I wont bother you anymore .

 Somehow , you are sweet . 280108♥
It's been so long since I last blogged , miss me ?
Yeah , long till my dog barking O: ~ .
My life for this month is really suck up t th core, Even though it's th most special month for me .
But somehow , rather not . I hate this month alot .
Excluding my bestf birthday , ofcos .
I won't hesitate t blow up everyth here; as here is too public t do so .
And this particular day , Oct 23rd 2010 . A year before confess happened , East coast .
Th seawater was never enough t replace those tears .I said . But not anymore . Because of sudden confession , I destroyed my bestf birthday celebration but I manage t control myself after his councilling and join th fun .
If you are sad , I'am your shoulder . If you are happy , I'am your smile ..... etc
Two hearts battling one . Sacrifcing had been done , w/o regrets I fought for this love .  I did my part but you break th rules , w/o any reason you announced tht we lose this game . I'am always hoping for th chance right from th start , even I know nothing; I still accept begging t you, tht made me feel stupid . I lose someth , I gain nothing . 7 more days since th last I said ' If were mean t be tgt , fate will bring us back again' . I believe in tht , but somehow now .Somebody made me t stand still , look back and think . What had happened for this past 1 year , I'am happy ? Issit fair ? Do I deserve better ? Does you really treat this seriously ? I think back , for this almost 1 year .
I'am happy heartly when you're by myside but not physically . I'am happy I have my true love whose holding my heart , but in the same time , cutting it like a vegetables quietly . I did suffer , I tolerate , I didn't mind .
 Because , I think , I'am lucky enough t have you (: . Pathetic things happened , Feb 20 2010 - I'am super duper happy ! Some ppl may know why . but don't insist t ask me what . Because I wont bother t ans .
I'am feel so much  grateful when caring ppl were around especially you . A tears of joys flew , I'am being loved , by so many ppl . I stopped all th nonsense cause I thought back , it's somehow stupid and childish .
But after sometime , it's gone . All th tender love and care from you gone too . Quarrels started , break ups , leaving each other behind often happened too . But if this thing happened , were alone . Quiet place , dark nobody is around . Ended up , I'am alone . I can't imagine , I was being left alone . On those times , how I wish got one drunken uncle run t me and stab me t stop th pain and let me feel tht I'am not alone in tht place . I waited , you didn't came back , dont even bother t check if I was alright . Somehow , I get used t it . I didn't mind . My temper was worse than a worst . Maybe you really don't understand girls . What they want and what they need . Maybe he's correct , I thought everyth he said was wrong . he just want t wake me up and think I deserve better . I kept thinking , you are th only one who can make me happy , can make me stop crying . But he proved me wrong , I lose t him . He thought me how t ' just smile and everyth will be ok' . I did it , I did smile . But I still do love you , love you so much tht I still gave in everyth . Even though I was always left behind . I did chose you than my friends , th worse thing you came first than my parents .Sigh
We're tgt , and yeah I'll better be quiet . A goodgirl you first time knew and used t called darling . I love-d you hard core always but th thing changed now is I play hard t get . You don't want me , I won't force myself inside of you anymore . You want me , you take me . You dont want me , you throw me . But don't ever pick me up again . I'am not a recycle paper anymore .
270108 Thts when I loved you till now and then .♥

Hey , it's been long after I posted aye (: .
Miss me ? Chey ! nothing much for me t post anyway .
Shall let th pictures talk , bye peeps !

Ilovemyfamily , specially my mom (: ! They never failed t give me th best . Hey luvs , sorry for me troubling-making outside while you all will recieve a police calls asking t bail me out . Yet , you all never failed to do so asap . You all were great , iloveyou all . I had a dad who love t joke around . I have a mom who never failed t give th very best for me , and too . I grew old w her , haha ! So I'am kinda not used t it when she's not around at home . Haha , hey and added t our family , Ahboy & ahbi ♥ Haaha they we're always there t see me cry or laugh . And guess what , they had th great listening ear .

Day 1 - A letter for my bestfriend .

I knew her since P5 till now , we didn't go through any arguement or even misunderstanding . Not a single fight for as long as 5 years .We're th only one who kept close-contact confare th 7 girlfs in primary school . She's always there in my very big yearday , sooner or later . She's also gonna be there in my special day (: , where I'am called Mrs.Chan . HAHA ! Babe , you had been repeating my history for th past 1 yr . You didn't gave up for th sake of your true love . Treated badly , had been neglect ; you still chose t hold on . That's a very strong bestf of mine ! Comeon babe , follow your heart , here I'am supporting you . iloveyou VivianHon ♥ .

A letter for everyone (: !

Day 1 - Your bestf  [240910]

Day 2 - Your crush  [skipped]
Day 3 - Your parents [250910]
Day 4 - Your siblings
Day 5 - Your dreams
Day 6 - A stranger
Day 7 - Your ex-boyf/girlf
Day 8 - Your favourite internet friend
Day 9 - someone you wish you could meet
Day 10- Someone you don't talk t as much as you want
Day 11- A deceased person you wished you could talk to
Day 12- The person you hate th most/caused you pain
Day 13-Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14-Th person you miss th most
Day 15-Someone you drifted away from
Day 16-Someone that isn't in your state/country
Day 17-Someone from your childhood .
Day 18-The person you wish you could be
Day 19-Someone that pester your mind / good or bad .
Day 20-The one who broke your heart th hardest
Day 21-Someone you judge by their first impression
Day 22-Someone you want t give a second chance
Day 23-The last person you kissed
Day 24-The person that gave you your favourite memory
Day 25-The person you know tht is qoinq throgh th worst of time
Day 26-The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27-The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28-Someone tht changed your life
Day 29-The person that you want t tell everyth to , but too afraid to
Day 30-Your reflection from th mirror

 Elmo :D!

Hey it's been so long since I last touched my blog aye , so do computer .
It's like once I'am home , I'll go t toilet t washed myself up , kisskiss ahboy & ahbi  :-*
and yeah m to BED ! oink-oink* .
Had been spending my free time every after school sleeping aye ? and guess what ,
because I used t doing tht . I found myself being lazy and sleeping more at class X: .
BabyB. see le don't scold me oh ! Imissyou ): ~
Gonna meet crazy for cathing up on my study sooner or later on .
And yeah , needa catch up , Idw t retain !
Hey guess what ! AHBOY GREW veryveryvery fat !
gonna upload if I had th mood t , alright x; . Haha !

 He likes t hide there eat and sleep ): !

Cute right !

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Naughty gerard .

Yeah , tht's our new Baby :D ! BabyB. named it ahboy . Laughs , bought by Baby at Clementi when we're on th way t lan shop . Haha ! Play-ed pool while waiting for Th two ben . Not long , joan girlf and her friend came .
Woots! CANNOT TAKE OFF MY EYES FROM AHBOY , he's so cute la !
headed for dinner then t taman , girlf's house t take th cage . Tada ! :D
slack and t coffee shop talk cock and have our supper . Laugh like mad ,
johny-johny-johny-wosh-johny-wosh-johny-johny-johny .
Hahah !
Ahboy v hyper le . Happy got new house mah , babyahboy (: .
Cab-ed t BabyB. house , and yeah . I'am exhausted . So fall sleep not tht long .
♥Ahboy !
BabyB. Thank you very much ! I always wanted t take hamster . Tehees .

Overdue pics . (: Last friday , let me update today as promise t Shermine t upload th photos .
Paiseh , delay so long . Teheees , play too much audi . Kills time uh .

Have a good chat after my reporting w jasmin`cute & Her mom . Talks alot aye :D hahahahahahahha !
Hey I'am smiling (: , can you see it ?
I'am super duper happy today ! BabyB. went down t jurong from bedok and what's th reason ?
T meet me . GOSH ! It's my first true smile for today , thanks BabyB . ! But before tht I knew from himself tht his not willing t come down . So I must get used t it . I'am a strong girl okay !
But on th way home, tragic happened . This stupid bangla , Zzzz . Pervertttttttttttttttttttttttttt ~ !
thanks t xiaoyang (: . But I wonder , why are you at jurongwest when your place is at cck o.O .

Dave ,
Thanks for your concern . You never failed t show care for me (: .

Eunice Ng Shi Peng !!!!
STUDY LA ! N-LEVEL COMING LIAO LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

Hey , you refresh up my memories . ):

What a pathetic day , thanks t everyone -.-
Morninq , mothertongue and I slept for 1 hour & it's not enough !
Physic , was like boringg . Before reccess was th worst one . My face changed from white t black .
Thanks t tht cheena teacher , puneh . Headed t tht stupid YOG stuffs , and dumb ppl even cheering when police motor drove pass , dumb .  Back t class , made me show attitude t tht cheena and we was like staring each other face to face , eye t eye till he gave me back my wallet . acculately 30secs ? It was maths , oh ~ Did half of my work . English was th worst , throw one book at this pubor till his mouth bleed . Serve you right assshole , you're not in th right time t make me angry and throw things t you accurately at your stupid mouth . After school , dave pei me wait for BabyB. . Thanks aye . and anyway , w/o his help , I wont cool down just now (:
Lunch w BabyB. > Movie > 320 > Home . Ohhhh ~ .

Hey boy , you still care ? wow . It's been long time , aye ?
Go back study la , assshole . And time for you t change . I know you guilty but it's past ,
as you said , it's better for me not t know , so I didn't elaborate so much .
Thanks anyway .

Hey I really have a great day today . My own boyf make me feeel so fcuking happy -.- . Damn brat!
Idw liao la . Dulan . You tired then I not tired uh ? I got sch tmr leh , you can sleep 24hrs at home .
Me leh ?I wonder why sudden like this , fcuk -.- .  Nehmind , forget it . Okays ? Also sick and tired of this . Won't be hoping so much next time . I wanna be like you .

Tmr pool w girlf aye (: ! 

Tags :
p@sser123: well . maybe you will prefer a bigger deek ? so sad . i wanted to give you
-hahahaha , since your mind is dirty , as well as your dick .

It's all about worrying tht i might lose you . -/

School was fine today , first period was like wasting my time cleaning my table . Thanks t th powder .
Well , I get fcuk-ed up when tht cock-boon was like diao-ing me and jeremy's non-stop craps .
I just pity him , he cannot go over us , ohhhhhhhhhhh ): .
Well , geography was like , ohthisteacher . Boringggggggggg .
Has fallen sleep and woken up due t my sweating , It's super hot laaaaaaaa . Maths was like half a period ?
So another half was replaced t free period , means its eaither having fun or sleeping . I chose t have fun (: .
Was like talkingcock w baozhong , bird & yanwen . Once disturb and hit tht pubor's butt . Well , jeremy chase him out . Oh-its-trouble. His penceil case was thrown away , as usual so I clean-ed it up (: . Good uh me .
But I used a broom , so overall , I'am still good ! I so not gonna dirty my hand touching his stuffs men .
After school was Meet BabyB. outside my sch :D ! tehees , headed for lunch then t his house . Was raining slighty and I feeel like sleeeeeeeeeeeeping ! , reporting after tht and headed home . BabyB. was like going around my house while me preparing , LOL . Let him watch tv , use com & charge phone . Shiok only uh baby . Was suppose t watch movie and play pool instead but I couldn't go home so late due t class th next day .Well , play pool instead . Saw Alvin & jianyuan . Then crystal & Reena's cousin . HAHA !
Play pool till 9 plus :D Laughs ! I was like winning BabyB. and last ball sigh . WALAO ! He bo give chance deh . After tht went home (: , Now waiting for BabyB. 's call . Weeeeeeeeee ! Tmr , movie w BABYB.
Should I posponed on friday instead of saturday ? I wanna go vivo ): .

Tagsss :

p@sser123: Oh serious ? i thot i can get ur ass someday . hai .
Haha , toobad . you does'nt have th chance t get , even my hair also donthave .
passerby3: my world crashed when u were engaged. oh well, all the best!
Oh , too bad for you , LOL .

I used t sacrifice my everyth but sometime , i felt it's not worth it .-/

Today, BabyB. is booking out , and town w peeps aye ~ .
Well , sch was like hell -.- . Lame teachers = lame celebration but not lame students of 3NA  .
 Ms.Nasreen was leaving th sch alr . Ohfcuk !
She changed our interest in English & she's th only one who calls me princess .
I wont be seeing her ahboy at th carpark anymore , laughs .
After sch headed t bukitabatok for some privately stuffs .
And train-ed home . Well , kill my time on audi till 2 hr before meeting Fong & YangJie .
Off t meet fong & Zhenting . Well yeah , yangjie and darren came afterwards . Off t tohguan then JE .
Waited for BabyB. and steph . Saw peien  ! Had a chat for awhile . Once BabyB. came , we had our puff before heading t his house  . Bus-ed w peien back while th rest has start heading t town . Waited for BabyB. t bath & prepare finish and cab t  cenilesure .Had our dinner at burger king and I saw a super super chio shoe at one shop ! ): . Expensive la , $180 . After having our dinner was like 11plus ? wanted t take cab but too many ppl . So we took MRT since it's still available . Off t clark quey & cab t boatquey . Strawberry was pack-ed , audition too . So went t amber21 . Was smoking w steph outside & this pub girl was talking t us (: .
She's 19 , she don't smoke & that was not her main job . She's so powerfull t take a double job men !
Not long , billy came . After drinking , cab t babyB. house , bath & disturb each other till 430 am .
If I was at BabyB. house , Iam a early bird . Cause it makes me feel tht it's a waste of time . will update next time . on phone w babyb :D

It's been long time since I last post my little diary aye ?
Shall update now (: . BabyB. is booking out sooner and later means !
I got somebody t hold my hand tmr and somebody t fetch me after sch :D ! Happydiememenzxc .
But I gotta catch up t my DNT work , no regret anyways (: . cheerrs !
Nothing much at sch , slept alot . That's all . Had t continue my dnt , SAYO !
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Meet babyB. just now , teheees :D ! Went t 7eleven t buy our snacks . End up ,almost all is mine . Giggles*
BabyB. bought chocolate for me and my fav. sweet (: , a slurp and seaweed ( Y ) .
Had a long chat w him all th way till 10 plusplus . When he sent me home at my doorstep , mom was there so no chance t kiss him ): . Nehmind , tmr i kiss him till he's lips is numb HAHA ! :D
Shall write what I wanna say now .
T tht girl who thinks tht she v. zai ;
Don't think until you're th god la deyy .You seems more like a mushroom god t me . HAHA !
So many ppl hate you , still had th guts t go and be friendly w them , whatthehell.
And lexian cannot go w anyone uh ? Please la , you're not her mom or some blood related some sort ..
Stop being a moving mushroom around , doesn't suit you , you this xmm thinking men .KNS~

I can't help but t go back t you . Iloveyou but I'am tired . I'am gonna write someth over here which I wrote at my own diary book .
26thOct2009 . ; two hearts battle-ing one .
`You said you love me and you doesn't want t hide it anymore .
you said you want t start a new fresh again , 
you said you'll do anyth for me ,
you asked for another chance t let you takecare of me once again .
You even swear t god that if you hurt my heart again , you'll get a car bang and all th accidents you could ever think of .
You even get yourself into trouble just because you wanted t come and find me when I'am down deeply .
you said ...
'If I cry , you'll be my shoulder ;If I'am sad you're my shadow ; if I'am happy, you're my smile . '

It's not enough for th sea t replace my tears ,boy .
You said you'll wait no matter how long it takes .
Because it took me 13months waiting for you before I gave up .
I also want you t be w me , but it doesn't take with a blink of eye .
Give me time & I'll come back t you (: .




If you ever come t this passage of mine from my last yr diary .
I wanna ask you , where's all your words ?
And guess what , I know where it is (; .In your rubbish bin

Couldn't help but t love him all over again .

Oh , 3 days suspention is over (: . Didn't really went out nowadays as I'am being a pig . Yeah , get myself a new concealer ytd & a pair of dollshoes today . There's nothing special today . Bought my cigg , had my lunch > Meet up w mei > fetch crazy > had a puff w ricco , crazy & zhaoming> Reporting > Home > ThaiMovei>JurongP>Home-d . Tomorrow gonna go back sch ? Zzz sian la . imissBabyB. Sigh . Shall end my post as there's really nothing bout today . tatas !

 It never feels good t be left out
Nth much today , meet crazy for a puff and went t yishun pei sist put anggong . Then had our dinner w one boy . Dont know his name , after tht . Cab t jurongpoint and had out dinner . Went home and went t aunt house .
And this what happened -.- .
Ohfark , I just really Zzzz . You imagine you was talking t a person , okay let's say YOUR boyf and you two was talking happily . And a min ago , not even a min of silence . you just realised , he FALLEN ASLEEP .
And guess what , he just woke up when he called me .
Tell me , what you'll feel th moment you know tht ? FCUK-UP RIGHT ?!I know you all will say 'he's tired blablablabla shit' But please la , atleast if tired might as well don't call right ?! Dont even know how t put an effort , fcukChyeeBye . Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz , trying t get th last time BabyB. & BabyG , is a going-insane-task . Last time , he's not like that . He'll do EVERYTH , ANYTHING for me . NOW leh ? Ahhh FCUK LA , pcb -.-'

So many stuffs happened last few days and I've no time t post on my blog . Well yeah , some stuffs tht ppl will say 'wtf sia' . Wont elaborate any further as it was seriously freaking childish tht it makes an imatured happening .
Let's start from th happpy moment . Ytd was crazy's early b-day celebration at 850 BBQ corner . Me , crazy , hongm. and junyu helped out all th way :) . Was having fun w/ our water bomb . Haha , shall let th pictures do th talking .

I'll continue if free times goes t me (: .

Aftermath , home-d for a good bath and meet BabyB. under my block . Took cab t boonlay t fetch kor and dropped off crazy and kor at jurongE. and headed t babyB. house . Was supposed t drink but ... Went down for supper and off t sleeep till 730am . BabyB. had t booked in already so took cab home-d.